Well......it is done. But he isn't mad at me. He...said he couldn't choose. Between me and Chelsea. I could still see he loved Chelsea..and choosing is horrible. He says I saved him unwanted depression.
Today I was absent from school. I....do have friends. I am....so...so STUPID! Khrystyne took care of my clarinet for me, Shan took my music and Laura took my shirt. I have people looking out for me. I owe them more than an apology. I owe everyone else more than an apology. I have been so...stupid these past couple of weeks. I don't know....what I will do, if I ever loose them. I am loosing them but now to atone for everything. I want to be with them again. I have been a horrible person, lost in my own mind these past 2 weeks and now...now to try and make everything up. Please...I ask everyone who feels i have been pissy and ignoring them...please...please I am so sorry.
A friendship.
Lost.
Where did it go?
I blamed other people.
But it is only myself to blame.
More friendships,
Down the drain they go.
Where did they go?
More blaming.
But only myself to blame.
Two weeks of bad moods
Two weeks of being trapped.
Now to atone.
But how?
How,
After so long,
Can I atone for being rude and mad at friends,
Of whom I had no right to be mad at?
All I ask is forgiveness.
If it not given,
I must accept,
And move on.
 moon_neko_23 · Fri May 25, 2007 @ 11:15pm · 4 Comments |
