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This year two of my friends have moved or are moving. Actually, allow me to correct that statement, one of them is most likely going to move. I have found myself being rather moody about this entire issue lately. My bestest friend, Mukiryoku has moved to Kansas to go to college. My newest friend, Otonashi (known here as MythicalYoko) is going to move to New Jersey in all probability.
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I'm really depressed about the entire situation. I haven't got many friends and those I do have I hold very close to my heart. So it hurts when one of them leaves. Even though I know I should be glad for them - they're experiencing new and cool things - I can't help but feel like I'm being left behind. Have you experienced this feeling? It's an incredibly achy one, and I think, maybe, it won't go away.
I've felt like this before, when my daddy (whom I love very much) got hit by a truck in a Wal-Mart parking lot. I've always hated Wal-Marts since then. My memory of those few years while he was recovering is incredibly fragmented, but my best friend Hitsuji tells me I would always burst out crying for no apparent reason. I rather think it was my prerogative to do so though. I still get really emotional whenever someone starts talking bout it and I have to leave the room.
He had a really bad brain injury and was in a coma for a month or so...
I hate it when people cry. I'm an empathetic sort of person, so it always hurts really bad whenever someone cries or is angry, even if they're not even angry at me. It's the same sort of feeling as when someone close to me leaves. A dull, aching pain in my heart. This probably sounds really corny, but it's so utterly true...
Yours with a fair dose of melancholia,
Fuzen
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.  Fuzen-sama · Sat Jun 30, 2007 @ 02:32am · 2 Comments |
