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well
its hard to say what I'm feeling right now because I haven't really thought about the last day of being a certain age in awhile. Its going to be a busy day, I already went out for lunch with my mom, and then I had a nap with the cat on the couch. That was nice, out for about an hour with my stomach warmer, haha.
She's a weird cat, doesn't like to be pet alot just likes to wander around and lay with you or whatever. Its nice in a way. You don't get bitten that way either ^^
She has a cool name, Chicklet, like the gum I think. Lots of nicknames: Chicky, Chickle-let, Chickers, Chicky-bum... etc. but the best is Cat haha
I'm feeling reminicent today. Like remembering stuff...
Lots happened this last year, some good, some bad. But the best was meeting Joe, he is like the light of my life now. I practically only go on the computer to talk to him and no one else, and if I had my way I'd phone him everyday just to remind him that I'm thinking of him.
If all works well, he will be my life. My heart.
I had my first depression as well. That was crap. thats all I can say, and it caused me stress problems, I have to be so careful now with my stress it sucks. But I have my motives. You know, breathing slowly, thinking clearly. Its hard but eh, the pre-birthday stress-outs are starting to go away so I'm like THANK GOD
I think the worst symptom of my stress is the hyperventilating, but the sudden urge to hurt myself comes up but eh
Like punch something, you know that sort of thing. but... I dunno, I kind of have a hold of myself...
In a way its myself that caused it, but it was my stupid relationship. But I'm re-building my friendship with the ex. Its working pretty well, I don't have the sudden urge to hug them anymore.
... *smiles slightly* My dad looking over my shoulder is a bit of a bother, but ohwell
I realized who my real friends are too, which helps, stressing out over idiots annoys me more then anything. Still don't have a job, getting one with the older sis though on Monday. cheers
well, I'm done for now...
Love you all
-Jade
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