I actually think I am "growing up", like offically. I mean I have always liked acting immature and acting like a kid. I have a 7 & 8 year old cousin, so I've used that as an excuse. But seriously. I feel like I want to change myself. I want to be a different person. I want to change. I feel like its either myself or friends that are changing, but I'm pretty sure its just me. I feel like I'm stick in the middle. Like I want to be "grown up" now that I'm 19, but at the same time I don't. Like the kid inside me doesn't want to be locked away only to be taken out ocassionally. You know what I mean? I feel like I'm drifting slowly away from old friends while making new ones, but I don't want to lose those old friends because they are dear to me but something inside me keeps telling me to let go. Go and make new friends. I don't know. I can't really explain it very well. I just kind of feel torn in two.
 LovemelikeyoudidBBY · Fri Nov 23, 2007 @ 08:56pm · 0 Comments |
