Well my Christmas this year is going to be ok I guess...
I find out my computer was torn apart and the data was the only thing saved. I have to use my fathers shitty comp now these days and it has Vista on it which is a royal pain in the a** -_-
The only thing im looking forward to this Christmas is my guitar and the fact im going to be alone for yet another year. Almost 22 years now and im still single and have hardly any friends out there in the real world. I know its my own fault and I should not complain about it since I hate people who complain about life but yeah... sometimes reality can be a pain in the a**. Ive been a royal ******** this year with all the s**t ive pulled off with certain people. Ive lied which makes me look like a bad role model and ive sneaked behind peoples backs and it pissed them off greatly. I said some harsh s**t to someone who was close to me. Though I won't be doing any more of this on the upcoming year it sucks to know ive done enough of it this year. I lost the trust of my brother who I hold closer to me as much as my mother who is my hero. I lost the trust of a close friend who I thought of as more than that for a short time. And now my father is taking care of a 21 almost 22 year old (Me) when im perfectly capable enough to take care of myself. I need a job I can actually do and enjoy every day. Ive been looking into the game testing business but they tend to be rare and most of the websites hiring them are scam artists -_-
I guess the only thing good for me this Christmas is my guitar and seeing my cousins ive not seen in several years. I appreciate that my father is giving me a place to stay while I fix things but im tired of having people take care of me. It makes me feel like a child. I should have been out on my own two years ago...
Blah anyways enough of my babbling and bullshit Merry Christmas to anyone who decides to read this heart
 -DeathlyDan · Fri Dec 21, 2007 @ 05:37am · 0 Comments |
