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moved from my pro and most names have been taken out:
There are over six billion people in the world. Everytime you blink, a new baby is born. And for every person on earth, there is only on other that is the exact opposite of them. The one that is so different, yet, so the same that they will disagree on everything but agree on only one thing. That you both, are in love. This person is otherwise known as your soulmate. Your significant other. Your true love.
I'm a teen. Apparently I don't know what love is. All I ever fall for is "Puppy Love" or Crushes. And that's what it was like. I'd think a guy was hot, I thought it was love, but once he would get a haircut or time went by, I'd be repulsed by him. Disgusted that I liked THAT. That's puppy love.
I had a Boyfriend. He said he loved me, and I loved him. or, so i thought. How I felt about him started out as a brightly lit flame. burning true and a long time. little did i know it would slowly extinguish. ember by ember, until it was out and my love for him was gone. I felt bad. I thought he still loved me so for that I stayed with him and tried to renew the relationship. Relight the flame. come to find out, he was fooling around with other girls. I left him and for the the longest time i thought i could never love anymore. I thought I didn't deserve love. i was hurt and i tried to talk to mark, to get back together, i almost did. I heard he was sad. via our friends, so i felt terrible. I put his happiness before mine. But then i worked up the nerve to completely ignore him.
Months later i was bored and going to go fish on gaia's fishing boards. The "truth or dare" board i was gonna go into must have been full because i was taken to the room right below it. An "Emo Room". I looked around and decided to stay, i was too bored to leave or anything, besides, T/D was full. I was really hyper for some reason though and the first words he said to me were: "You're really perky, arn't you?" I laughed a little and "poked him with a cow" I knew he would fall in love with me. most guys do. It must have been my spunk or innocence. He began to tell me of his ex. Rachel. She left him and had him beat up. literally. he also told me he cuts his wrist and smokes weed. It felt like i had been stabbed. though, since i was still having mixed feelings about my ex and i was cautious when it came to falling in love again, i decided to avoid him. (ok i'll say his name! its Elliott!) And when he told me about his pain, I gave him a Shadow Spirit. Before i even knew his name. And in a note enclosed with the item, i asked him to promise me not to cut or smoke anymore. He told me that's when he truly fell in love with me. It was my compassion. I didn't even know him, yet i cared. Though he broke his promise and cut one night. I got so mad and upset that i just put him on my ignore. He told me he was going to kill himself because he now felt he had nothing to live for. He had a friend send me his suicide note. It pierced my heart. I cried that night, I realized that I found my soulmate, my true love, and that he died for me.
Thoughts of killing myself too crossed my mind. I went to school that morning with a heavy heart until at theater Rehearsal, I got a text from him. (He tried to strangle himself with some chains but he hit the wrong thing on his neck and instead he passed out. Now that I think about it, That wasn't just coincidence...) never had i felt more relieved in my life. I called him but his mom picked up and told me he would call me back. a coupld of nights later (he hadn't called. his mom didn't tell him I called.) I called him and he picked up. The moment I heard his voice, My heart melted. Two nights later, he called me while visiting his cousin's house in Kentucky, he could only get signal for his phone outside, so, he stood out there. in -10 degrees weather just to talk to me. I told him i could call him tommorow but he refused. I could hear him shivering over the phone. Afterwards he told me he loved me, before I said it. I've never heard a guy say that first. From that moment on, our love was undying. It was...Forbidden. He promised he'd marry me. We'd Spend the rest of our lives together because we deserve to.
We're truly in love and there's not one person in the world that knows how we feel. Our love is love in its purest and most strongest form. It's TRUE love. and we don't deserve to be seperated. We're about 1,000 miles away but our hearts are one. I would die for Elliott. And he would die for me. I wish people would understand. All I want more than anything is to be in his arms. Why should i be denied my right to love?
Some people never meet their soulmate. Infact most people don't. Out of the 6 billion people, I've found mine. And I've never been more grateful.
Carmen_Roxy · Sat Mar 15, 2008 @ 06:29pm · 0 Comments |
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