I’m alone right now. Alone in the dark. The tears are falling down my face. I’m alone so there is no one to wipe the tears away, no one to hold me as I cry, no one to comfort me, no one at all. I try to do every thing I can to make everyone happy but no one really notices. I give my life, my time, my space away to make everyone happy but I know no one cares. I try to make everyone happy but in the end I acomplish nothing and make myself unhappy in the prosses. I only wan’t everyone to be happy, to get along, or atleast pretend to be happy while
I’m around. If I wasn’t around to try and help everyone else with there problems I could stop and work on my own but I can’t not be there. I can’t not help. It seems my whole life I have done nothing but listen to everybody elses problems or help everyone else out. For once I want to not have to worry about everybody else and me. I know why I am like this. I know because it is the only real possible explination. Everyone says I am such a nice person, that I’m kind, or that I am just a all aroung good person. To me I don’t see it as being nice, kind, or all around good to me I see it as being humane. To me helping another person isn’t the right thing to do, no to me it is the only thing to do. I don’t think of my actions as right or wrong I think of them in the sence as it is what must be done or what shold’t be done. I also think that every action of every person is justified. to me there are no stupid actions to me there are only actions with a reson that might not be clear to everyone. I wish I wasn’t so weiord compared to everyone else and the way they think. Maybe if I thought like everyone else I wouldn’t care like I do. But if I didn’t care who would? And I leave you with that question. That one question is why I wrote this whole long stupid blog...
 HopeYouFall · Sun Mar 30, 2008 @ 04:28am · 0 Comments |
