Oh well~ Time to update an actual entry in my journal about me rather than having a story.
Things are going ok I guess. My step father, so close to killing him and almost close to ending my life as well one week. Horrible things happened in the past month. I ran away to my friends house for the weekend to avoid my parents. I know I really shouldn't run away from my problems, but I was about to go insane, and my friend helped me. She is really nice, and wacky too. :]
Anyway, while I was at her house we hung out with a few of our guy friends, they helped me get over what I was going through, they missed the old me. Happy and spazzy. :] My friend's mother performed Reiki on me. It's a spiritual connection between different people, its also a healing process. It really helped after I was done, she talked to my deceased grandmother, it was really touching since I was really close to my grandmother. It seemed that after she died, it was the most traumatic thing that happened in my life. I felt like I had no longer any connection with anyone. And my other friend, she just says I need to see a counselor. I DON'T NEED A COUNSELOR. They screwed me over before. -Sigh- I dunno. But anyway, during the reiki session, it made me cry so much, I had to let everything out. She gave me two stones, and one was burning in my hand, my grandmother told me to take care of me and take the steps. I know what she ment, take the steps to finding someone that will love me, but slowly.
I met my friend and her mother in the pharmacy today when I was with my other friend, I got my haircut and honestly, I felt so much better, no more stress. She also said I don't hide behind my hair anymore, she saw the true me. It made me feel like I actually mean something to people. I have felt better, I have had a more positive outlook on life, and I'm not shy to talk to strangers anymore. :]
I want to thank the great friends I have... I love them so much, they changed my life. :3
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