To tell you the truth, I feel horrible today, just so... fragile.
In the sense that Jessica sent me this horrible letter I got yesterday when I opened my old mail account.... *sigh* she called me a b***h, a liar, a backstabber and said a plain "******** you" in there.... I'm not doing anything about it, I'm trying to control my feelings and just wait for everything to pass... even if I am innocent, I did not spread any rumors about her and especially didn't back-stab her and called her a b***h and yeah all that crap. First of all, I haven't said anything about her, except to my closest friends and family. and I don't consider that as back-stabbing because I was merely expressing myself to my loved ones. No one said that was no good neutral I feel so fragile because the letter she sent me broke me slightly... I didn't show it off in school, though... but deep inside, I was... today was also such a stressful day.... that's why I'm trying to inhale and exhale deeply....
I just feel like crying for no reason... also because we had an activity in school where we had to write/ describe our partner, which was our best friends/ close friends of course... so yeah, I picked Chelsea and vise versa... her letter to me was very touching because I could almost feel the emotions or the words come to life....
I wrote her a touching letter too... I guess it made me feel stupid because I always complain of how little friends understand me... but now I know, even though I don't believe in forever, I should cherish the moments while I'm here... I'm leaving this wonderful school in two years, and it's already sad ><..........................
 Moonlight_Dancero9 · Tue Jun 17, 2008 @ 11:41am · 0 Comments |
