This guy...
he claims that he's "in love with me"
he talks about how he would give his world to me and all that blah blah. he talks about would he wouldn't go with anyone else but me. it's hard to believe all of that. it's flattering and all but possibly untrue.
not only does he say these things but "flirts" with me i guess. he's cute but ehh... I'm pretty much stubborn when it comes to getting a boyfriend. I'm too scared... pretty reserved and I'm not all up for love. it's too much for me.
i feel like he doesn't really care for me. he doesn't show it. i try so hard to be nice to him and then it's one excuse after another on why he said the things he said. I honestly don't believe it. i'm trying my hardest but i just can't do that. maybe i'm being cynical or something.
cynical meaning that it's hard for you to trust people
or here's the dictionary.com meaning:
exactly.... well.... i just want him to be more romantic like before, even though we're not going out. i wish i could go out with him but honestly, by the way he's acting. I can't. I stop myself. I know that it's a bug mistake if i did it again. I just want him to change and make me feel important and special. I want him to want to talk to me. or maybe do the little things like mention me every now and then to his friends or on his friends list, put me as number one.
most of all, i hate excuses and lying. all i want is the truth. that would make me so happy.
i'm only human, begging for happiness... no... not begging... demanding. I want happiness. I'm tired of the same routine. I just want everything to change but only for the better.
that;s all i ask
 Mari Lambo · Tue Jul 15, 2008 @ 07:46am · 1 Comments |
