I kept writing even though I wasn't online to type it up and everything. I had a lot of stuff going on. =/
August 28
I'm still extremely upset, and it just got worse. I don't think I want to be best friends with my best friend anymore. We're just not how we use to be. Before, we would talk about everything and anything but I just don't see that happening anymore. She never tells me anything. I found out something really serious and a bunch of other important things and I just can't believe she didn't tell me. I honestly think I have every right to be angry. If we were so-called "best friends". she would've ******** told me. Damn straight I'm angry. She told everyone else BUT me. I hate having so many things to worry about. I thought this school year, my last year of high school, was going to be stress free, but I guess not. I have the people I'm angry at to blame. Thank you you SOBs. Everything seemed way too perfect. My classes were amazing, I had a class with one of my crushes, I had friends in almost all of classes, my teachers were cool and I'm pretty much away from the people I don't want to be around with anymore. I'm definitely getting a perfect GPA this year. My mom has been really great lately. I've lost weight so far because I'm trying to be healthy XD. Everything! I thought everything was going so well for me. Perfection was on the horizon at least, but everything had to ******** screw up. Not only this situation with my "best friend", but my crappy significant other. I'm still not talking to him. I don't want to talk to him. I want to be away from him as much as possible. Thanks to him, I'm never able to get as much sleep. He kept trying to talk to me but I just ignored it. Ignore it and trying to sleep. I hate growing up. Too many things come up. Too many things start to change and as you all know, I hate it. Maybe I'm immature about that. Hell. So be it. This is the way I am and I don't think I can change for anyone or anything. It's too hard.
August 29
I'm in my first period right now. Still pretty upset. My friends ditched me and probably all got a schedule right now. The only one that's left is.... eh. Well nevermind. Everyone else showed up. I still don't like this class. There's an annoying 9th grader sitting in front of me and she keeps messing with this guy sitting next to me. There are a couple of times where I just wanted to yell at her but it's really not worth it. Now it's 2nd period, advisory. I kind of don't want to be in here. I found out the other day that my crush likes someone else so all that flirting with me was petty flirting. I hate that s**t. 3rd period. Oh snap. I'm hating this class now. The only thing I like about it is it's my only challenging class. It's AP Psych. My new book is my bible now. That's what my teacher said. Wonderful.
August 30
I went to the movies and the mall and this buffet thing. Nothing special. =/ (I didn't write anything really but that's what happened)
August 31
I went to Busch Garden. It was awesome. I've never went to an amusement park with my dad. It's funny because he still rides roller coasters. I thought it was awesome. I had a good day. My sister rode some rides and I took a bunch of pictures. I'm probably going to upload them later. I slept a lot. I feel asleep in the car on our way there, then I woke up for a little and went back to sleep. When we got there, then left, I fell asleep again. It was late when I got home and I was completely knocked out. I could barely walk up the stairs. Oh yeah. I finally talked to him, well barely. And I'm guessing he's mad at me for not talking to him for so long. He has every right to be mad.
September 1
I got home around 9 this morning. I'm dead tired. I didn't get good sleep. I'm having mixed emotions. I'm talking to a friend online while I'm waiting for another one to get on. I'm totally in love with this guy that I'm waiting for right now. I have for a long time now. I haven't talked to him for a while though. My cousin just got back from Florida so we're supposedly going out to eat. Yeah. I feel sick.
I'll finish later
Mari Lambo · Mon Sep 01, 2008 @ 05:30pm · 0 Comments |