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I dunno whats going on any more. My thoughts are going in too many directions and i can't control it anymore. what is even getting even worse is my ability to feel people's emotions they drive out. Its hard to explain but I can feel what others are feeling at the moment , it is getting to the point where I can't controll it and I just want to break down and fall on the floor and not move for a while. earlier today my emotions got a hold of me and now I'm worried I'm going to hurt anyone.I scared. and i don't know aht to do now. I just want to run away for a bit, far away for human contact for a short period. after Amanda died I knew i could never be the same. have a death so close to you many times nis enough to drive anyone to the point of where I don't have a real meaning to stay happy. many of my friends noticed that I stopped smiling as often, they know I'm not feeling ok. I just hope this passes like a cloud on a rainy day.