Ok umm ... sorry about that earlyer its just that i fellt bad cuz of some stuff i had in my head ... But anyway let my try this again... (in a positive mud) umm ... The reason im starting to write again after so many years is cuz i've got'n to the state in my mind where i almost drown in my own bottledup emotions... so i find this way the the best way to show what im feeling without having to talk to people (i rather talk to an animal then to a person most of the time cuz they have the habillity to see your emotions and in ther own strange way the try to cheer you up {its true cuz it works on me 3nodding }) so yes in a way im shy when its about talking about whats in my head (my own privet world wher music and malta rullz {i like malta cuz its like my own kind of alcohol free beer} xp ) and yes i am a verry musical person, i believe that music is a part of us cuz its like the rhythem of life... (again not my own belief cuz i have my own fallowers wink )
... And for yhe onez who wonder why i bottleup my emotionz... frankly ist cuz i try to make my own image and cuz i am most or my friendz emotional backbone(i mean by this that i allways am ther helping hand,ther hero,ther mother {in a strage way seens they all say im to mature for my age and that i think like an adult} also im the one who leads most of ther path cuz some just cant seem to find ther path by ther own) so in a way i cant let them see my fallz ... but im only human so i cant expect to be perfect... and every ones in a blue moon they see my imperfections (and when that happenz they use what i've showd them and the roles are changed {Gaby= Child friends= parents sweatdrop }again i say im not perfect)...
So here i end my monolog by leaving you with this message...
Dont try to be what people want you to be , be yourself ...
Oh and if they dont get use to you that means that your
been what they would like to be and they nv u!!! xd
Its true (A 50 - 60 % of the time whee sweatdrop )
Bye Bye blaugh
Living to learn and learning to live.
 GabSquare · Tue Dec 30, 2008 @ 09:27pm · 0 Comments |
