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These days, I've been struggling. Deep within was i being impulsive going into a new relationship just like that. No doubt times we had were happy moments but i ask myself how long it might last. Negative thoughts you say but what else is there to expect from someone who've been through this much of failed relationships, and never knowing what went wrong.

Times i wish i coulda been a player. What about the guilt that is hitting me? For once I want to be selfish, i want to be bad. I'll do anything to lessen the pain. I'm really tired of being the one to give.

Will you still love me if I'm bad?