Once again!
My brother has managed to piss me off.
This actually happened a few days ago. It was... I'm not sure, Thursday night? and he shows up and just tells me that he and I are going to a chess club tomorrow and that I had to show up at twelve thirty.
I cannot begin to tell you how much this pisses me off.
I realize that it by itself is nothing too large- but he's always doing this. He never asks for my opinion about whether I want to go or what I want to do when it comes to these matters. It's just like what happened with that hiking trip. The morning came and I wouldn't go because they had never actually ASKED me if I had wanted to go or not.
I'm sure some of you remember. I said no and then my mother grounded me from three weeks. Banning me from the computer, phone, video games, and going out with friends....
It's for that reason that having my brother NOT ask me whether or not I wanted to go just sets me off even more. And I don't think I can ever forget how, on the morning of the hiking trip when my mom told me that I was being grounded, he told me that it didn't matter whether I wanted to go or not; I had to. Apparently I have no right to an opinion in this family.
I still went to the chess club, although I refused to actually have a good time. I wasn't rude to anyone but didn't make an attempt to have friendly conversation with anyone and when my brother sat down to play with me I gave no effort in playing chess. If he didn't like it, I just don't give a damn. He needs to ask for my ******** opinion and he needs to deal with the consequences of my behavior.
So for the past few days I've been fairly ticked. When I get angry, though, I usually just go into a super-apathetic mode. Offline I've been acting like my normal self, but online I was giving little effort to hide my apathetic manners. I hide how I feel almost all of the time, but I needed some sort of a relief so I laid it out online. After all, this is the place where I escape to be myself, so I saw no point in hiding my mood at that time.
I sense that it was badly timed for one person- I think that they feel that I was angry with them. I won't call them out, although next time I see them I'll apologize for being so... apathetic, for lack of a better word. Or hopefully they'll read this and understand that I'm speaking to them. All in all, no one here online offended me, and I'm sorry for any misunderstandings.
It's times like these that make me eager to move out. It's just three more months. And for certain this time.
Or so I hope. Knowing my mother.... -sighs-
 MythicalYoko · Mon Feb 02, 2009 @ 01:55am · 1 Comments |
