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Dear Journal,

Today has just been a real downer for me. For the past day or so i thought my girlfriend was avoiding me. I was so sad and mad at the same time. So i texted her mom with no reply. I send her a few text and left her a voice mail saying if your going to brake up with me atleast call me and tell me. Still i hear nothing from her so i message her friend she goes to school with. Then he tells me that her mom took her phone and there internet is down. So now i just feel like s**t. Without charity i feel like theres a gaping hole in my chest as if there suppose to be something there and i can feel this hole everytime i breathe it gets harder and it seems to be ever expanding except to when i hear her voice it starts to get smaller and when im with her its gone. Her mom just texted me she'll call me later and already i can feel the hole getting smaller. I Love her so much. Now thinking about it if it wasn't for charity my life would be so diffrent. Before i met her i didnt care at all about my life. I though everyone in the world was nothing but insignifcent cold harted, Lieing, betrayers. But charity came into my life and taught me how to have fun again. She taught me how to play not care what others think...Now thinking about it really she taught me how to live. And for not i'll never be able to thank her enough for. She helped me open up. And now i dont fear what anyone thinks of me and the mere thought that keeps me going is knowing that Im still her's. I just now got off the phone with her we called and just talked but i was so happy i havn't been so happy in forever oh my god i love this girl. (and yes btw the hole is gone right now) Ahhhhhh im so freking happpy i could just march down the street singing while wareing a cat in the hat top hat. YAY!!! Now i have to wait for her to call back lol thanks journal you helped out today talk to you later. PEACE!