well lately i have been alittle depress with no suprise im over working myself with commissions that and them artwhores keep on comming after this one comission i will increase the price for the couple pic i dont like couples....they seem too happy ^^ XD awwww....the thing and this... i have no clue where im going in life.... ahhhh *scratches chin* u know decission kill me so does love. Im afraid of commitment because i wont keep them. im afraid to hurt people and im afraid the im invissioning a short sucky life with no goal or anything usedful achieved. ehhhh i guess thats the life of a whore XP i find myself in constant sadness and emptyness though im glad people here in gaia give me their time and support all of you mean so much to me i would write down a list :3 may be when i leave gaia i will... and leave u all good presents :3 ^^ though i doubt i would have the heart to leave u all :3 so u r stuck with me until i get a freaking green card XP biatches! *shakes head* anyways... love life is more than crappy love life is a HUGE BLANK!!!!!!!! and u know i dont mind. after A reationship ended i got used to being alone AND also being a whore now like i said i wanna keep off commitments and i guess love can also be feel by watching others be happy ^^ i wanna find greater love a uncontrollable one my sweets brothers happyness will bring my death to be a enjoyable one. awww...if i could only see them smile. i pray for thier safety before my own and yes i pray for all the people i know...to live another day so i may see you again. My siggy..... my current siggy was done today....like 1 something in the morning. its my mother. how she looked in general she always went outside and found some sorta bauty in flowers she planted a ganrden full of those flowers...her fav one where the red ones. she was a strong woman... no emotion could tear her down. she showed me no emotion, she showed me love. A love u can ONLY appreciate by observing the pain. she did had that machete thingy ^^;; and she used it go cut small branches of wood but also for trying to kill my dad. and this dogs. she had limitted patience. if she needed to do soemthing she didnt care who was in her way. she married a man whom she almost kill when she heard he cheated on him. still...most people would define my mom as a monster if i were to tell all things she did. but she was also a good person. a fun person when she wasnt angry i thank god for letting me have sometime spend with her
even though i bleeded from the woons i still know deep in my heart she loved me ahhh i'll shut up now ohhh and yes she did have BIG boobs o-o something sadly she didnt passed it down on me XDDDDDD
Okechi · Fri Nov 04, 2005 @ 04:56pm · 8 Comments |