Why can't I tell him that he's the only one I have ever loved this much? That he's the only one I have ever loved,period! I just want to straight-out tell him that,no matter how many times we flip that God-forsaken coin,he will never be mine. Whether we flip it best 2 out of 3 or best 98 out of 99,I will only ever be his! Every time we talk and one of us has to go,I feel like I'm about to cry. It hurts because I've already left him once before,and when we have to say "Goodbye" or even "Later",it feels like I'm leaving again...This Summer I will be leaving. I'll be leaving for New York for the whole Summer. It feels like I'm leaving him again and to think about it,I hear my Heart slowly cracking. Last time we said "Goodbye" or "Later" I did cry. I cried because I felt my Heart cracking again...another reminder of the slowly approaching Summer. He tells me to go and to not even think about him and in turn I simply tell him i don't want to go and that it's impossible for me not to think about him. He says he worries about me,but he never tells me why...I want to express how much I love him,but I find difficulty in that because there is no way...I love him so much that being away from him for an hour seems an Eternity. To be with him for a minute is an Eternity that I would gladly spend with him. To see his amazing smile just gives me butterflies.....Why can't I tell him all of this in person? When I try to it comes out as something totally different.....Oh,Love,why can't I tell you these things....?
 HarleyMarieBaby · Sat Mar 14, 2009 @ 05:52am · 2 Comments |
