i cant take this anymore, this crap is bad enough in real life but online where i escape from rl? I hate it i am a withdrawn person for so long and everytime i start to come out of my shell everything around me blows up. I am sick of it i am so stupid, I should have learned by now not to try to come out of it. God thats where someone like me belongs. Im not fit to be around other people and i have to accpet that and give up the fantasy of being normal. I have friends and the ones i trust always hurt me but i keep trusting im a fool i will just end up like my grandpa, trusting got him killed and i will end up the same damn way. I fit the leo to a t after all they are so trusting and loyal they get betrayed and hurt from over looking things that for smart people would be warnings.. I know my warnings if i start getting close to someone run before its to late. I wish i was my friend she doesnt vry for anything hardly its as if her tearducts had dryed up me i have such a caring and big heart i cry and feel so much it hurts me. I just need to decide is online worth the same pain as offline? I dont think it is i think i will take a break from gaia and let me get over my depression.
 Kitiara_fox · Thu Apr 16, 2009 @ 05:45am · 1 Comments |
