I know I shouldn't but I sometimes question my relationship. But I shouldn't. Why? Because I know she loves me. I found out so today. I hate resorting to this method cuz it hurts but I had to manipulate get my answers. I hate having to dig so deep just to find out. Knowledge and information will be the death of me one day. gonk But I can't help but use a skill and ability given to me by god. It isn't every day that you can get whatever info you want from anyone cuz you manipulated them to the point of that info from them comes like niagra fall. I dislike it. It is dishonorable. But I hate surprises even more. So ya.
Honor vs. Knowledge
Natural vs. Security
I hate this endless fight in me. It'll never go away. Constantly will I be reminded that I contradict myself. That my ideals and beliefs are completely opposite. Constantly...horridly...unfortunately...
 Dirteh Old Man · Thu Nov 18, 2004 @ 05:15am · 2 Comments |
