I know I'm partly to blame.
You're starting to realize it.
You can only blame other people for so long though. :/
I don't give a ******** if you think I'm weak for thinking about you.
You were part of my life for almost three years.
I have no concern over your opinion.
I have no desire to ever speak to you again either.
It's just for a while there without your moon and sin, I could not find my way.
It just takes time to adjust to your absence.
My life is like a carnival. In every sense of the meaning.
I realized not too long ago that it was time to spread my wings and fill a once empty hope.
I am in that process. I am succeeding.
I almost dug myself in a hole, but I crawled my way back out just in time.
I'm sure you just hate that. Or part of you. The only part you don't smother.
I thought I knew you. I thought you knew me.
It never was that. It was just what I thought was the stability of it all.
Even though stability never was there. Obviously.
I made mistakes. Indeed. Things I had to live with everyday that you may think didn't grieve my soul.
You are wrong. Though I never expect you to believe it, this truth is why I breathe.
Bettering myself for myself.
And starting over with a new person as a new person.
I was a selfish b***h. I was a spoiled brat. Crazy though I was/am(I've come to terms with it), I can't use that as an excuse for every dumbass conceded action I made.
Regrets are horrible things to bare on the soul.
That is why I have made my inner amends and found a form of redemption.
There are many.
Pick yourself up off the floor.
I've seen it. I've been it.
Ms Anne Thropy Community Member 
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