Tuesday 7th September, 2010
My Dream
I have a dream that one day, I'll be able to walk around my own office and look around the room. I'd be wondering how far I took to get to where I was standing now. I have a dream... that I'd live my life as a Psychiatrist.
But that's not going to happen.
Why...?
Because I'm confused.
Confused about a lot of things.
What should I do?
Where should I stand?
Is there a boundry where I cannot go?
What can I do...
to stop this confusion I have now.
I go to a school, and I'm, well, I can't tell you. (I'm a senior, that's all I can say.) We get to have six options next year, 2011, but I'm not sure what to do. There is only SIX options we can take, and I got seven. Since Math and English are compulsory, I cannot drop any of those out. Only four options left. In those four options, I'm considering on taking Health, Art, Science, History, and Japanese. And, as you can see, there are five options. Tell me, what should I drop?
Health: Being a Psychiatrist, you're suppose to help cure mental illness, disorders, phobias, or any sorts. Psychiatrists do not do any surgery, whatsoever. We only take notes and help cure the illness. Nothing more. Therefore, I need Health.
Art: My teacher was hoping I'd continue art again. But it's not about her deciding for me. (Not like she was, anyway.) After I recieved this GAT Art Questionaire, I haven't thought of leaving Art. I asked my teacher what the sheet was, and she said it's Art for accelerated and talented people doing Art. (Not that I'm bragging, but I'm speaking the truth.) I figured, if I continued Art, then maybe I could get into a good University (or College, as most of you guys call it). I was also thinking of doing Photography, since Art is my passion, and I love doing it.
Science: Obviously, they say Science is strongly recommended. Why would you drop Science anyway? I need Science more than anything. But I'm scared that I'll fail it and won't pass Science. I understand I suck at Science, and I need to be good a Science to be a Psychiatrist, but I don't think I can handle the complications. I only wish that I knew Science more than I knew my passion for Art.
History: I love History, Even though it doesn't count much in two years, I still love History. History is amazing! Even though it involves you writing heaps, I'm prepared to write a lot to do whatever it takes. Since Sociology does no require History, I'm thinking of leaving History and go for Sociology in two years. However, I hear Sociology involves more writing, like in History. But I'm prepared as usual. I'd get use to it. But the thing is, in History, you learn about the behaviours about the people and everything, like in Health. It's a good opportunity to actually do something about writing and study hard.
Japanese: I love Japanese! It's one of my most favourite subjects at school, followed by Art. And I don't want to drop Art or Japanese, but I'm going to have to. In two years, I get to go on a trip to Japan. I can't wait! I came so far to be standing where I am now. It's amazing that I'm right here, praying that I didn't have to drop out a subject. But what can I do? I love Japanese. I'd do anything to continue doing it, but I have a feeling I might have to drop it. But I have this strong feeling that if I dropped it, I wouldn't be able to do it again. In other words, I'll regret it. - And I don't want that.. ever!
I'm so confused what I should do. I want to do them all.
In two years, my plan is that I need to do Chemistry, Biology, Health, Math, and Sociology. <- But I'm not sure about Sociology. I'll check with my History teacher. He'll know -- I hope. I'd probably have to do Physics, but I'll ask my Science teacher about it too. And as you probably realised, I don't have Art of Japanese in there in two years. Sad, don't you think? :/
I don't know what to do. My friend says just follow your dream rather than going for the subjects you care for and enjoy. Then again, I told my teacher, and they said that I should just pick the subjects I love doing, and ditch the ones I don't like. But I told her, "I love them all, except Science and Math. But I have to do those inorder to actually pass myself as a Psychiatrist". And you know what she did about it? Nothing. She only said it was a problem;;
I'm confused.
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