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Okay, so I went to Raleigh for the 4th of July weekend. Was looking forward to this trip for awhile as I figured I'd get to see people who wanted to see me and all. Well it turns out that didn't happen really at all. Yea I got to see my friend Narain but that was about it, but my friend Brion wasn't too thrilled about that nor was really my other friend Liz. Another thing is I wanted to see fireworks but apparently my friend and his family decided against that. All I kept getting was later or not now....being code for stop bugging me about that & shut up about it, not going! Of course my hunch about us going was right all along, but as it turns out we wouldn't of been able to see fireworks anyways due to rain (Did I mention I hate rain, especially on the 4th of July?)
Anyways, long story short here's the gist of things, its I've gotten this feeling his family has thought I've been annoyning and whiney or bossy (and perhaps snobbish) and they just haven't said anything. No offense to them, my friend Brion, his siblings, and my friend Liz, and some of Brion's friends but I haven't felt less welcomed in my life especially when we went out to meals together as a group it was like ppl were ashamed to be near me & didn't really talk to...though Brion's older brother did talk to me (which was funny, as in strange) When I did try to talk all I got was hushed or told to be quiet, which was the case this whole frickin' time I've been in Raleigh! Geez, can't I say anything without being fussed at, seems like a no. Well isn't that fair!?
I hate to say this, but I don't feel like coming to Raleigh anytime soon unless its I come by myself and I not telling anyone I'd be coming, unless its Narain, as like no one in Raleigh seems to give a crap about me anymore (as my mom said). All give crap a** excuses why they can't hang out, as they don't want to hurt my feels so they make up something 'cause they don't want to be around me, of course! Grrrrr!!!!!
What's strange is they'll hang out with other people but of course not me, after all I am very low man on totem pole, so why should they give a crap!? WTF is going on?! Am I some blacksheep, the plague or what? Its like I suddenly don't exist anymore
Heck, Nina is right maybe I don't deserve people like this. I've always thought as Brion as the one that got away and wanted a 2nd chance with him but now I'm not so sure. Nina said not to bother, that he wasn't worth it and I deserve better and she seemed to give the inference that its not worth it to stay friends with people who treat me like dirt & garbage...but on the other hand my parents make a valid point that I shouldn't throw away good friendships that I developed with Brion and Liz. Anymore though I feel like I've drifted apart from them, which will probably be even more the case if Liz moves to Myrtle Beach (meaning she'll hang out with Brion and screw me most likely!) what do you think of the situation? What would you do?
RosalineAng · Tue Jul 05, 2011 @ 02:50pm · 0 Comments |
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