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I'm kinda sad. ): I'm happy for summer. Totally and completely... But I'm gonna miss my teachers. I like 'em all this year. Kinda.. My science teacher kinda weirds me out I guess. He was really easy though...
I remember the first day of school I was afraid that my teacher was going to start yelling at us. Like she did to people who had her for fifth grade (she... "retired" the year after we got out of fifth and came into jr. high this year), and be evil. But actually, she's pretty nice. I don't see what they were complaining about... Weirdly enough, I still remember the one time in like.. third grade I think that she saw me standing around alone because all my friends were somewhere else and made some of the kids in her class play with me. xD That was so awkward..
I'm gonna miss my history teacher next year. I mean, I don't know how I could get a better history teacher. He's really fun. He squirts people with spray bottles when they're stupid... He made history enjoyable for me this year. :3 It's not my least favorite class I don't think this year... Still not my favorite, but not my least favorite. I'm sad though, because if I get him next year he's supposed to be really hard during the ninth grade project.. Win-lose situation I guess. u_u
My band teacher... She's pretty cool when she isn't blowing up at us for talking when we aren't supposed to be. I'll definently miss the days that we watch movies instead of playing... But that will be replaced with not playing at all and just putting things away in the library. I kinda wish I was doing band next year... If only I didn't have to drag the bassoon home all the time. =? And practice every week... I do fine without it anyway. And if I really need it, I do it...
And my math teacher.. I've had her two years in a row. Same period both years. She's really cool.. I think I've been pissing her off with Jessica this year though.. Not as much as earlier in the year though. People say they hate her because she sends them to the vice principal for talking, moves them for talking... And she doesn't for us. I started thinking about it, and I've kinda come to the assumption that it's because the four of us at our table are smart and have A's. We don't even pay attention most of the time either and we still have A's... And even if we don't pay attention we can just pick it up during corrections every day. I hope I get her again next year, that would be so cool...
Jen says she wants to change her image. Something like that. She wants to get "fatter," dye her hair, grow her hair out... Stuff like that. And change her friends maybe.. That worries me. She's said it before, and even though she didn't do anything last time (that I saw) I wouldn't say she wont do it. I just hope she still wants me as a friend.. She's such a great friend to have...
I've thought about getting different friends. The problem I come up with is, Who the hell am I gonna be friends with then? I don't wanna be friends with the preppy people because... Well, they kinda bug me. And I doubt they'd like me anyway. I don't wanna be friends with the.. punk-ish people really, or whatever they are, because I'll just end up being a poser hanging around with them. Like they'd like me anyway. xD The unpopular people all seem... Jerky. Like the guy who cleans up the cafeteria every freaking day and yells at you if you don't do what he says, or steals your chair to stack it the second you get up. How inconsiderate can you get... The only other people I can really think of at this point are my friends I guess. And the "popular" people. Who are asses. :3 But they always are... So basically it's my friends, or be a loner. And being a loner sucks, I had to do that for part of the year in science because I had no ******** friends. The joy of people randomly picking you to be in their group...
I kinda wish I could change myself like Jen wants to. Like being less shy. Not blushing all the time and getting embarressed like I feel like I am lately. A lot more... I kinda want to dye my hair too, but I probably would pick a sucky color. I wanted contacts, but.. I don't really care anymore. I wish I knew if I really was bi or not so I could stop thinking about it and feeling like I could just be making an idiot of myself. Chelsey thinks I'm not, I dunno what Jen thinks... My friends were using peer pressure for me to tell everyone so we could talk about it openly, which I don't ******** want... People assuming I'm gay for absolutely no reason... I think it sounds stupid, me not knowing really, but... I just wish I did. It's confusing... And I wish I would talk to my friends if I have problems with them.. Which I tend to. I wish I was more self confident, and didn't worry about what people would think about me so much...
Maybe I can figure some things out this summer... I doubt it though. Damnit...
Six weeks was it? I can't wait for these few weeks to be over...
I found that song. The one I didn't know the name of. Called Sinful Rose. Now I need to find the translated lyrics...
Arancia · Wed May 10, 2006 @ 06:29am · 4 Comments |
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