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Most of you don't seem to understand me, so I'll post it out so you can read it and maybe everyone will stop hating me, I dout it though.
I'm Autistic meaning I often don't know what to say or do in most situtations, people always misunderstand me and think I'm mad or igoreing them when I'm just tring to think of what to say, if it was some thing I could fix I would! it's not my fault, at least i'm better then I was a couple years ago, then I wasn't even talking to people and wasn't hanging out or any thing I came along way if you look at it from my point of veiw, maybe you guys would understand me better, i'm very immature, I maybe act like I'm 13-15 and thats cause of me being Autistic, so I seem to get along better with people younger then me a lot of the time. life sucks, to me this world is a living hell and theres nothing I'm going to be able to do about it ever in my life, I'll probably never be able to work or have a job any thing like that, I'll never be like a normal person like everyone else in this world, I'll never be able to enjoy life cause I'm always worried about who's going to hate me next.... I can't help it that I'm stupid and never know what to say or do, it's just my brain works differently and I never understand a lot of things, but i guess a suicide will be the best result in the end, life will never get better, the hole of darkness is just too deep, ok I wont kill myself, well not yet, I still have a couple people I care about in this world, that I need to live for. my stupid disorder keeps me from a normal life and me not even relizing things have went wrong intill it's too late, all I ever wanted in life was a normal life, I always see those people at the mall walking by having a good time with there firends, always knowing what to talk about and what to do, and wanting to be like them, but life isn't like that, i'll never be like them, i'll never be interesting, i'll never know what to talk about, I'm not prefet and my life has no point, not that you read my stupid talk thing I hope your happy now........ I think I'm going to cry now.....
Cory....
Go Diego Go! · Mon Aug 21, 2006 @ 09:48am · 3 Comments |
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