I have been really stressed out lately....
My firend Mark still likes me and is Jealous of me and my boy firend. So he desides to be a jerk about it and say he didn't want to be my firend any more cause I don't want to be more then firends with him. He also tried to make my boy firend mad at me by telling stories, so that has been been really stressful. My mom is mad at me cause I wasn't in the mood to help her baby sit these little kids today and I'm not supost to be online at all today, I just don't know how to be happy any more, I feel I never make the right choises I just never know any more. my life is going to hell right before my feet, slowly everyone is turning against me... well other then that i have this firend up in California that my mom trusts and might let me stay with that'll be cool if she lets me go, and leave all this crap behind and maybe i'll have a chance to meet my boy firend in person. But on the other hand I rather be back in Pennsylania with my firends and my Cousins, but I dunno what I want any more being back there would make me happy but I would be farther away from my boy firend, So I have a lot of thinking to do, I don't know what I want any more... I guess I'm more depressed then stressed... I'm also worried about my brother he's been smoking cocane and got in trouble with the cops and my parents might kick him out on the street if he doesn't stop, I think he just needs to go to rehap they really help there, i have been there a couple times for drinking and don't drink any more cause of it, so if he would go there I bet it would help him too... but the main reason I quit drinking was cause I hurt the one guy I care about, Josh. And I didn't want to hurt any one ever again like I hurt him, it's been almost 4 months since we broke up but I can't forget him, can't move on, he means a lot to me... if some thing would happen like that to my brother I bet he would quit... but many wishes never come true, only a dream of sorrow....
Cory....
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