So, He left me. I knew It was too great, to think of me keeping such a perfect angel. I love him with my entire being.. even though we broke up, I still want him to keep my class ring. I know, it's sad, I mean, I'm so pathetic.. I feel so disgusted with myself.. I carved an M into my hand, along witth 4 X's and " LxV " <( I was trying to spell "Love" XP DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO CARVE AN O INTO YOUR DAMN HAND?! )>
I don't know what I'm going to do with myself.. He left me, for someone he feels "Stronger and deeper" feelings for, someone he's known longer and has had feelings for longer..
I hoped, she wouldn't come back, I hoped I'd make it 10 months to see him..meet him.. god.. It KILLS ME knowing I won't.. I literally want to get on a plane and fly to his town..
I'd ******** knock on every god damn door until I found his house.. And I'd stand there, bleeding, and sobbing.. ..and he'd like, Disown me as a friend..
gonk crying gonk ********, I hate myself, why can't I meet someone like him and be able to make them ******** happy enough they won't want to leave.. gonk crying gonk
Lady Freakshow · Fri Sep 08, 2006 @ 12:01pm · 3 Comments |