im going soft, my head isnt gonna last long in this world. what makes me tick is caving. soft hearted she accepts his challeging thoughts on getting her to roleplay. a broken soul soon realizes where its fate will be decided to go in what realm will her soul pay the price? how many times am i going to pay the price of having a lost and broken up soul. where am i to be who is it thats soul is being found and lost as many as others were found lying there dead in heaps of their families tears I long for you comforting arms to hold me close never letting those comfortable thoughts leave my body and soul my heart feels mended. you strengthen my weaknesses when im hurt by the faces of love the moon and the stars will always hold your face up there for me my dreams turned into reality for only one and only. seeping through me is the milky way thats how our love is flowing more through out the outter skirts of space tugging and tugging at me i feel my heart torn into pieces when your gone with the wind never settling is where ware today the wind in the tree tops never settling for just one place in our hearts or minds, minds like a field of memories waiting to tell people about or hidden love/ as she lies motionless with no other feeling of life but love taking over mind and soul and her heart not hearing her own life only love. strong bodies holding her against the wall to hold her back from running to him her tears spilling on their hands as they held her back walking her away from his continious face looking at hers with eyes reading her frightened mind for she felt banned from her own loving life after the strong bodies held her backshe tried crying out but strong bodies silence her for she was taken away from her one true lover her memories cf him clung to her and not a day, year, or month went by that she would always be with him. he urge growing in my heart to feel his arms around my whole body aches for them. Knowing that somewhere his arms are around another girl sends jolts of horror to my heart. the deepness of things just sank even lower from where they started out to be. sinking into tears, heart torn to shreads Im Lying in heaps of dead souls crying out for the loved ones. My voice wavering each day as it begins to die away, Wind blowing pushes me to the ground with amount of force to keep me down from my path where i must go. how long can i keep myself alive in the world in time. leave me in my tracks, dont touch me dont come near me. depression has gotten a hold of many things in life, the days turning to grey as i watch things fade away. the life of one who doesnt even know what to do runs down her path of sorrow and hides for her own safety of being hurt in the life of something that can never be. stuck in a world with nothing more then no one being happy is her hell in life she wont ever be able to find something thats her own. watch his chest rise and fall as he slips away from my hands, they couldnt do anything for him but i knew he didnt have the striking strengths to hold on. i watch that chest fall for the last time in my life. i sigh with anguish and remorse, not knowing if i will ever see this person i once fell in love with his body was buried somewhere in a realm that doesnt seem to exist. my time remaining has fallen short for me sighing doesnt do me any good. i sit in a corner watching my tears drip to the floor i watched him die i couldnt do anything. i failed to try. my wounds need time to heal, i sit in the dark not wanting to face the time. i watch it pass but im here and nowhere to run to. i keep my eyes closed wishing i wasnt here anywhere but on earth. i keep to myself in all the ways i possibly can. i keep my tears to myself. i dont let anyone see my hurting side to me. my wishes turn into flames of distrust of the world. nothing will be the same as i see it. in this darkness i wonder what im gonna become a mute a silenced person who had her voice cut off. this person i see goes no where in her life but her silent darkness. she looks at her hands seeing her life through them seeking no attetntion from the real world she keeps her tight feelings of wishing she was cut off from the world what is there to live for. cut me out of your life dont bother to look at her she see's her fate in her hands more then she can see it through her heart. her soul unforgiving of those who dont see her forever she spends her time looking at her hands i dont exist i was shut out of this world by people from the real world my tears keep falling they run for days she sits in a dark world not knowing if she will ever be able to exist here or have a life she keep hidden remaining crying for her lifetime. running in the depths of darkness she waits for her death to come my worlds spiraling down into the ground, i see my hands trembling what have i done my life like s**t and nothing but deep darkness. will someone just take my heart out of my body and replace it it with the fears of my life. i made a mistake and that person payed for it. im watching my tears come from my eyes that wept all year. i broke the heart of someone and now its ruined nothing will fix it im hated by this person who wont ever forgive me for my mistake i did he hates me got drunk over me and now look i have ruined my life. its lost nothing will be the same between that person i walk with my head lowered towards a corner wanting to kill myself as i see my hands shake and my tears dripping all over them. once now is a torn down person inside of me that wants to be left alone to isolate herself and pay for what she did.i just want to be held and burry my face so i can hide my tears welling up inside my eyes. just hold me until i stop crying without showing my hurtful face to those who can see my tears in my eyes. hands trembling. my words are just jumbled into bits of sighs without meaning, torn in two was my heart but its nowhere to be found in the mess of love or hate
 Reki-34 · Sun Sep 24, 2006 @ 01:39am · 1 Comments |
