I have been depressed lately and havn't been eating and I'm not planing on eating any time soon ether... I couldn't even sleep last night... My mom was yelling at me cause I started drinking again cause of all the stress I have been having, I didn't cut even though I really wanted too... I'm starting to believe my friends on what they say about Josh and I really have no chance in ever getting back together with him, so they say.. But I'm not sure.. he's really making it seem that way I havn't heard any thing from him in 3days and when we do talk we don't talk about much, mostly my fault cause I get so nervious and never know the right words to say, so I guess I was being boring... I just don't know what to do any more... I'm afraid of hurting the people around me cause I still havn't gotten for Josh and they don't think he's right for me... I dunno any more, I just don't know, I don't know what path I must follow the one I'm on currently is dark and depressive and every thing is going down hill, all my so called close friends wont even talk to me, theres a couple people who talk and I'm glad they don't hate me... But I now have no friends in real life... Okay I lied My cousin Neko_boy_kitty is my best friend in real life but he lives so far away in Pennsylvania.. I wish he lived closer...
Cory
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