I feel I have no friends who actaully want to talk to me... I can't stand lieing and pretending every thing is okay, it's not.. I know my boy friend talks to me but he's only online at night... and when he does logon in the day I miss him online... he's the only one who really talks to me now and the only one who actaully cares how I feel... I feel everyone hates me and doesn't care how I feel, 5people today sent me a PM saying they wanted me to remove them off my friends list cry it just made me cry, I'm loseing my friends by the day and no one cares, I'm loseing every thing that I care about doesn't seem to matter any more I guess no one cares, why should I? all I now feel is hurt everyday now and nothing matters to any one, i'm just a worthless being with no point in life... the only reason I live now is cause I don't want to hurt my boyfriend, he's the only one who seems to care, my mom says "it's just a phaze, it'll all get better give it time" time just makes every thing worse, time is there to make things hurt more, to bring pain and sorrow. I guess i'm making a huge deal out of nothing and I know none of you care, but I bet you don't know how much it would mean to me if you just would at least say just "hi" once in awhile, that means a lot, it might not be saying much but it means every thing to me, meaning you didn't forget about me..... cry i know i don't even deserve that.... i'm worthless and i mean nothing to this world.... I live a life hoping the next day will bring death to me, hoping I wont have to go on, hoping every thing will get better, knowing none of that will even happen, I'll always be nothing, no one will ever talk to me and I bet none of you even read this....
Cory......
Go Diego Go! · Sat Oct 14, 2006 @ 08:19am · 3 Comments |