I have been really bored lately and there has been like nothing to do accept gaia and neopets. I want some thing differnt, some thing to do that doesn't make me feel so alone, I thought I had friends on neopets but I really didn't they don't talk to me any more... I know some of the care and talk to me at times and the rest of you like don't care how I feel.. I really need to make some friends in real life, but I'm just so shy and scared of what people think of me and will they accept me. I have horrible memory's of my old school where they didn't accept me and beat me up all the time... memory's like that scare me of meeting other people so I guess i'm limited to the internet where almost everyone hates me... I wish I wasn't so boring and could be more open then people would want to talk to me... but every time i try people think I'm stupid cause I tend to obess about things. for a exsample Neopets. I have almost all of them on the site i don't have as much stuff cause I had to start over.. I use to have like almost every cool plushie on the site and almost all the paint brushes... I also had this custom made kougra plushie but my dog chewed it and when I was younger I use to wear a neopets shirt every day, but that was 3-4years ago and they don't fit me any more, so i had to get rid of them. so yeah it can get annoying with me obessing about things cause for awhile thats all I tend to talk about. also it's part of my disablity that I never know the right words to say in most situtions or everyday conversations, but when it comes to a journal entry i could type a 8page statment if i wanted too sweatdrop it's just i don't know how to repond in most conversations, cause i guess i'm anti-socal not wanting to be though.. I'm tring not to cut, cause I know theres notrhing I can do to get you guys to talk to me any more, I guess I just need new friends...
Cory..
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