It's scary to be able to feel yourself dieing. But there's something calming about it too, it's something to look forward to. You know you aren't going to die for a while, but you also know you wont ever be alive again. Sometimes it's so frustraiting, watching the world, pretending to be alive. I feel like I'm lieing when I laugh or smile. I just want to scream, I feel so restless, trying not to think about the fact I dont have a real reason to be holding on. I guess I'll see.
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