if fear had a name what would it be?
the dark?
love?
the truth?
or my own self...
can love change your life?
yes.
for better or worse?
you choose...
you think i'm the angel you see infront of you but your wrong.
look into my eyes.
what do you see?
yourself?
then get away from me.
a soul?
a heart?
thank you.
i need someone who will see through to my real self.
my heart.
my soul.
they think you're crazy to be with me but they don't understand me.
they think i'm a cold hearted fiend.
i glare and they back off.
you say something to me and i laugh.
when i'm feeling bad you make me smile.
i get home and on my computer where i talk to another friend.
"how was your day? how's he been treating you? how's your family?"
the questions asked.
i can't tell you how i feel.
it hurts.
every day i feel myself drift further away.
Death.
the word sounds so welcoming.
i can feel myself dying everyday.
another part...
another second...
my heart races.
should i do it?
how will they feel?
will they care?
Love.
Death.
which?
tell him?
or live in the fear of doing so?
what day?
what time?
how?
i'll deside.
i should tell him...
but i'm to scared...
what if i say it wrong or do the wrong thing?
stop teasing me.
it's funny for a while but it goes away.
what if we weren't friends?
i have to ask you that.
if we weren't friends then i'd go back to the girl people fear.
the girl who hates life
the girl who skips school.
i practice magic.
i could go from blonde to goth in a couple hours.
i'm an anime obsessed rocker girl.
i lose that and i lose the friends i never had.
i have no friends but you.
a rock buddy and an anime buddy.
nothing more
good bye world.
good bye life.
take care of them as i go.
good bye.
i will always love you...
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ok i wrote this poem when i was debating whether to tell Jordan i liked him and i turned it into a sad kinda poem...... it kinda confuses me now......
 Your-Angel-Eien · Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 04:08am · 0 Comments |
