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Dani if it hurts to have him on your friend list TAKE HIM OFF.
Mail him tell him how you feel. >:C
AND NO MORE CUTTING OR I WILL BE FORCED TO SMACK YOU WITH A DIYING BEVER OF YOUR CHOICE. >:C
Tisk Tisk!!!
Don't forget the promise you made to me, young lady!!
<//3

I....I just can't.
I CAN'T OK!!!!
And i give a ********! It makes me feel a bit better.
I am just broken inside and can't do anything right.
That is just who i am.

Ok, you asked for it!!
-smacks with tuna-
PWND.
And DANI THAT'S WHAT I'M HERE FOR, VENT ON ME!!!!
DON'T HARM YOURSELF.
That's my job. >:C
YOU JOB STEALER.
And DANI MY GOD YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THEM IN REAL LIFE. >:C
MAIL THEM OR I WILL MAIL THIS WHOLE DAMN JOURNAL TO THEM ALONG WITH SOME NOT-SO-NICE THOUGHTS.

Well....I DON'T SEE YOU KEEPING YOUR PROMISE FOR ME TO NOT CUT YOURSELF!
YOU shouldn't be freaking.
It is my body and i can treat it as i want.
And i don't give a ******** if i didn't know them in real life.
I STILL CARED!
and why do you even care about the part about THEM! YOU yelled at him and YOU said you hated them....WHATS THE POINT!!

This might sound alittle mean: BUT I DONE THINK YOU'VE GONE THROUGH WHAT I'VE GONE THROUGH.
And do YOU have a PROVEN medical condition that CONTRIBUTES to the fact that I'M ALREADY A SUICIDE CASE?!?!??
NO!
I do.
And I HAVE EVERY DAMNITALL RIGHT TO BE "FREAKING."
And NO. It's not your body, It's Gods.
Your body is God's temple and I know I'm being a hypocrite but right now I could really give a s**t less.
AND WHY DO I CARE?
BEACUSE I CARW ABOUT ANYTHING THAT UPSETS THE PERSON I "LOVE" IN LIFE.
I DON'T HATE ******** ANYONE. GET IT?
You know what?
Nevermind all that BEACUSE I ******** GIVE UP. I'M DONE.
WITH EVERYTHING.
Ok. Are you happy?

No.
I'm never happy because YOU are never happy.
I liked it when we would always laugh together at the lunch table and never want to stop talking.
that was BEFORE you became a suicide case as you say you are.
But now, We barely laugh at he table and we never have something to say.
that is why i am always quiet at your table when i hang with you.
Becuase i always know that you would never be like the person that i always loved to hang with. The person who I was always jealous of your relatipnship with Sam. the person that helped me become who i am.
Why can't you go back?

Well, I DON'T ******** KNOW, MAYBE BEACUSE I FEEL LIKE ME HEARTS BE RIPPED OUT AND TORN APART, THREE ******** TIMES IN A ******** ROW.
Has that happened to you?
No.

Yea,
Maybe i haven't been IN a situation like that...but i know how it feels.
Because it is happening to me right now.
And it sucks in how it feels.

It's none of my business, but it's a public journal, so I thought I'd post my thoughts.
Dani, cutting does make you feel good.
But do you honestly know what it does to you?
Do you know WHY it makes you feel good?
Well, I'm going to tell you why. [not that it matters. I've told all my friends and they don't seem to listen...]

When you cut, your body releases chemicals.
Those chemicals make you "high".

When you cut, you MASK the emotional pain with a mingle of physical pain and euphoria.
That's right, you MASK it.
Like, it makes you feel better for the moment.
But really, you're just pushing it to the back of your brain...
There, it just 'snowballs' [it builds up, in other words]
And it comes back, Dani.
It always comes back.

Cutting ALWAYS makes things worse.
Always.

You say you miss those days at the lunch table with Michelle?
Well, with cutting, you're not helping to regain those times.
You're pushing them back.

So in short...
Sure, cutting feels great for the moment...
But that never lasts.

Plus, you're left with scars.
Scars that you'll have to explain to your children, your parents, your next boyfriend.

And so what.
Boys don't like you now.
Boys don't like me now.
We're only in Middle School.
Boys realize there's more than looks to a girl once they hit High School.

Dani, you've got such a bubbly personality...
Don't ruin it with cutting.

Of course, I don't expect you to listen...
None of my other friends do...
But if I save atleast one soul from losing themselves, I'll be happy.

Thanks Ashley.
It helps me a bit.
Glad to know that you care.

EVERYONE ON THIS ******** JOURNAL SHUT THE ******** UP ALRIGHT YOU KNOW BOTH OF YOU STOP CUTTIN YOUR ******** SELVES ALRIGHT I DONT GIVE A s**t ALRIGHT!!!!! BOTH OF YOU ARE GOIN TO ACT BETTER AND YEA LIKE CANT REMEMBER WHO SAID IT THAT WE GODS TEMPLE YEA RIGHT!!!! WELL FOR YOU YEA I GUESS BUT ME NO IM THE DEVIL'S CUZ I ALREADY KNOW IM GOIN TO HELL SO YA KNOW YEA IVE HAD MY HEART BROKEN MORE THAN 3 TIMES SO I WOULDNT BE TALKIN AND YEA HEY CAPTIAN IM STILL HERE FOR YOU BUT ALRIGHT!!!! ENOUGH OF THAT!!!!!!!!! IF YOU WANNA ******** REPLY TO THIS DONT REPLY HERE I DONT VISIT JOURNALS OFTEN SO SEND ME A JACKASSIN SON OF A BITCHIN PM ALRIGHT HOPE YOU ALL GOT THAT TO YOUR LITTLE MINDS!!!!!!!!!! KAPEESH!!!!!!!

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