I feel pain
it hurts
but its good to feel
it means I know what I'm doing...
When one day I do my best and never get noticed
it hurts
and its bad to feel
it means no one cares.
If another day I make a stupid mistake,
that I know is wrong
but no one sees
it hurts
because I feel stupid...
If the next day
its noticed
but they never see me change it
its even harder
to think I'm good anymore.
When one day
I'm completely ignored
and others are loved
despite their mistakes
despite their lack of pain
despite the fact they have no sweat, no fear of failure...
It kills me inside.
And I wonder why I ever move at all.
It's supposed to be for me
because I love to feel my body sway
and smile through the sharp pain
when my muscles say enough
and I ignore it
But it's meant to be looked at
meant to be 'perfect'
it's supposed to be worthless if it's not done just right.
So why bother if no one wants to see it?
 Syndrama · Wed Mar 02, 2005 @ 05:39am · 1 Comments |
