Had mother's birthday party today. Niki came, and she was quiet. I guess that's the best thing I can say about it all. She's still so upset about Chelsea. I only wish that Chelsea had made it another month. I think turning 16 would have been easier for Niki if she had. It just breaks my heart, but what can I do about it? Niki won't talk about it, she won't think about it, all because it hurts too badly. But you gotta go through the hurt to get to the good. Still, I know it weighs heavily on her, and it's much easier for me to say she needs to keep working through it, and not stop living, because I don't think I've ever hurt as badly as she is hurting right now. My best friend is still here, even if she's not where I live. I talk to her every day. I hope to never go through this, and I hate that Niki had to, but I think she could attack this much more positively. It would help her in the long run.
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