Right now i'm trying to deal with all of these doctor, and hospital appointments. I'm so scared about getiing brain surgery. I don't know how deal with it all, keeping this all inside is so hard, i never really show my emotions toward this, because i don't want people to see me crying. I don't want to make anyone feel bad, or upset. It's really hard dealing with this all, and I don't know how i even have the strength to go on.
Right now, i have only a couple more tests to do, before all of these doctors, and surgeons come to a conclusion about the surgery. The last of my tests will be next friday. The doctors well.. the last test.. ugh. I'm ready to cry saying this, the last test the doctors are going to stick a tube-like-thing into an artery near my stomach, and put half of my brain to sleep, to find out what the other side controls (ex: speech, arm movement, memory), and then the other side will be tested as well. I'm so scared.
All of this, these problems, just because i have an epilipsy case that i never new of, and had this since i was born.
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Well this must be sorta... uh... random since it's a journal thingy. I'll probably write about things that are going on in life.
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