I wish I could understand. Understand why I am on this earth. Understand why I act the way I do....
Understand...why I am with Jake and how he could love me the way I am. Understand why I love him. Understand why...why we live so far apart. If I could understand these things better...do you think it would be better?
My life can go a million different directions right now. So many choices...so many different things. There is no telling what will happen tomorrow, next week, next month, a year from now, 5 years from now. If I truly will be with Jake the rest of my life or...if I won't. I don't particularly like thinking about that......Not exactly..I like to think somehow...someway we will spend the rest of our lives together. I love him so much and nothing is ever going to change that. Understanding of our love.......
I would like to know. But that takes the fun out of life. Not KNOWING what will happen next...is the true adventure of life. Being in love.....is a true adventure of life....I am in love. I never thought it possible but I am IN love.....if only I knew but I love him and right nowl...that is what matters. What matters is what is happening at this moment in time. And what is being thought at THIS moment in time....
I know I am thinking....I am thinking about a wonderful future that just might happen!!
So many things....did this help me at all? did this help you?
 moon_neko_23 · Sat Mar 31, 2007 @ 03:53pm · 1 Comments |
