song+ Josh Groban // Oceano
book+ The Feminist Companion to Mythology
scent+ peanut butter xD
quest+ big parisian gown and wig <3 maybe april items ;.;
upper+ hopefully will have a job soon <3
downer+ all alone, no job yet, have to call stupid appointment peeps at like 8AM tomorrow
attire+ green sweater, pjs
drink+ none at zee moment
I guess it's time for an update? Well as it turns out I can't join the military .. because of my antidepressents. ;_; Which I can understand, but it's so damn unfair I wanted to just cry my eyes out when I found out. But .. I guess I'll be okay. I just really had my heart set on it. I was trying to eat more and be healthy and exercise. I'm still doing that, just because. I can do 20 pushups now ^o^ which doesn't sound like a lot, but when I started 2 weeks ago I couldn't even do three without falling down and panting. xD And like 40 crunches. I really want to get some abs showing. <3 Like not just when I'm exercising, but all the time. Whoot. n_n
So my mum and I talked about what I could do ... I was feeling really worthless and pointless since I couldn't join the military, and probably I can't join the police force because of the meds too. But I've always wanted to do something important. Not effing stupid, like being a secretary sitting behind a desk on my arse all day. I wanted to teach but the kids made me sick. But I think what I'm going to aim for is to be a paralegal. I've looked up a lot about it and I think I could do it. It's not a sit-down job, and it's something that I'm already okay at. Government was like my best class for some reason. And on the military tests I aced all the reading and language arts practice tests (although I totally phailed MAJORLY on the math part).
So really this is what I hope I can get done. Maybe not in this exact order, but all of this within a 2 year range. If feels good having goals again.
-First I have to get this job .. it's at Quiznos but at least it's something. xD GOAL ACHIEVED <3333333
-Beat my agorapphobia because it's the thing keeping me inside and afraid all the time D:
-Reappoint my stupid lab appointment so I can continue on my meds and not go crazy
-Study maths as much as possible D:
-Take the effin GED
-PASS IT
Then comes the stuff that's more in the future more or less, within a year and two I should hope.
-Find grant/get help paying for online college class for Paralegalism
-Still have regular job xD
-Save up for my motorcycle/moped and accesories (full-face helmet, jacket, hopefully all yellow and black a'la Kill Bill! XD )
-Pass and get degree
-Get a job as paralegal
-save up for a house
-get teeth and nose fixed D:
-buy house
-buy horse to put on dads land until I can ..
-save up for my own bit of land and
-frolic in the woods and be a faery
And then when I'm like 40 or so I will have had enough training to become a lawyer, which is less physically demanding. <3 And so I'll be able to take care my family and everything. <33
So that's what I'm hoping for. I know it's a lot, but I'm going to try as hard as I can to get this done. I want to have a purpose and meaning in mylife and I want to help people. Paralegals are like lawyers that help people with not enough money for a lawyer. So I'd feel fulfilled with that ye know?
Also, I'm really rooting for Obama next year. xD VOTE OBAMA BAYBAY <3
Annnd let's see. Oh yeah! I've got to finish my green and white costume in case we get to go to Scarborough Faire. I really really hope we can all go this year, Neko and Kyuu and even Rand. xDDD It would be so funnnnnnnn.
 The Viscount · Mon Apr 16, 2007 @ 08:30pm · 2 Comments |
