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I tired of the bar being set so high. I an afraid I soon won't be able to jump over it. People expecting so much of me. In every event the bar is set the same. Even though it may not be my best event, I am still expected to go over that bar. Every time I jump over the bar in one event another is added. When I try and lower the bar it is raised even higher. The bar is continuing to rise and soon I will have a choice, put springs in my shoes or fall. Fall and disappoint many. Fall and be criticized and talked down on. They still won't realize the every bar can't be set that high. I will fall and it will be soon. They still won't realize the truth. But I won't have to fall yet, not if I put springs in my shoes. I will be able to leap over that bar where I would have fallen. But soon, very soon, someone would see the springs in my shoes and my fall would be higher and greater than before. Then the stress would be gone! But so would all the bar I jumped over. Fading into a distant memory. So I ask my self, fall and be battered and looked down on many times or use those springs and jump over those bars for as long I can, before its all gone.