I lost my friend and my world is crashing around me. I don't know how I'm going to hold on. I have my other friends. And at the moment, I'm deciding who could ever possibly replace her. But its not going to happen. And I still don't understand why she doesn't want to be around me. I guess we just didn't have enough good times. I guess I wasn't good enough. I guess that they're better than I am. I guess that this is the end of me and I'm just not worth it. I'm not worth a s**t. I'm not worth anything. And I have nothing to hold onto and I can't feel it now. I can't feel anything anymore and I can't even cry anymore because I cried for too long, too hard. I bawled my ******** eyes out and I cried and I'm not gonna be able to sleep now and tomorrow its gonna be worse because its gonna all come crashing down harder and I won't be able to feel all day and I'll cry some more and its gonna be worse and I can't feel. I can't ******** feel! I changed too much and I was too much to handle and she couldn't handle me and now I'm falling apart again and my demise is reaching me, closer, closer, closer now. I can't feel and I won't be able to feel it when the ball comes back down on me tomorrow. And I'm not gonna be able to handle it. Not gonna be able to live. She's gone. SHE'S ******** GONE. AND I'M ALONE AND I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT. I CAN'T. IF YOU'RE READING THIS DEVON, I'M SLOWLY DISINTAGRATING.
I hope to God you come down.
I hope to God you feel this now.
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