Its been awhile, but im here.
So, ive had 2 weeks of non-stop bullshit. They've been really bad. Ive only got one thing keeping me up at the moment, but soon even that will be gone. This year is ending so quickly, and with it bringing a lot of pain. Im sick, physically and mentally, and have yet to find a reprieve. Im getting better at talking, but its not there yet. Celebration is a long way off. Things are changing, rapidly. Friends are foes, tempers have softened, restoration is in the air, and death is finally looming once more. Beautiful change. Ive fallen victim too. I feel differences, attitude, speech, opinions.. Ive been thinking about everything again, and i concluded with myself.
Pros, cons, everything. I made a list of all the bad on a sheet of paper, and the good on another. Records i guess you could say. Sadly enough, my con list was a lot longer. At least i know myself a bit better.
Lastly, passions have been running high the past few days. It feels like im going to have a sexual collision here one of these days.
s**t.
Im watching myself carefully. It sounds strange (even for me) but im going to figure out EXACTLY what makes me tick. to be recorded of course. I'll have to pick up a fresh new notebook to record my observations in.
This will be a strange project..
So, ive had 2 weeks of non-stop bullshit. They've been really bad. Ive only got one thing keeping me up at the moment, but soon even that will be gone. This year is ending so quickly, and with it bringing a lot of pain. Im sick, physically and mentally, and have yet to find a reprieve. Im getting better at talking, but its not there yet. Celebration is a long way off. Things are changing, rapidly. Friends are foes, tempers have softened, restoration is in the air, and death is finally looming once more. Beautiful change. Ive fallen victim too. I feel differences, attitude, speech, opinions.. Ive been thinking about everything again, and i concluded with myself.
Pros, cons, everything. I made a list of all the bad on a sheet of paper, and the good on another. Records i guess you could say. Sadly enough, my con list was a lot longer. At least i know myself a bit better.
Lastly, passions have been running high the past few days. It feels like im going to have a sexual collision here one of these days.
s**t.
Im watching myself carefully. It sounds strange (even for me) but im going to figure out EXACTLY what makes me tick. to be recorded of course. I'll have to pick up a fresh new notebook to record my observations in.
This will be a strange project..
