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Why am I put through these trials and tribulations when it comes to the things I beleive in. If I beleive in someone certain circumstances cause me to always doubt my beleif in someone. I have been burned so much in the past you would think I would learn. recently I have been finding myself not caring about anything at all in fact I'm completely numb. Everyone says its my signs that I'm slipping back into my dark phases. let me tell you about my dark phases they aren't fun. My dark phases are nothing like these goth and emo phases everyone else has.

no, no, no, My dark phases besides me not caring about anything or anyone I still don't cut myself I just ignore anyone that talks to me and its paranoia as well. I feel everyone is out to destroy me so it progresses top a hatred towards them. Which brings me to the look and my eyes shows either a visible hatred when acknowledging someone of a lolling daze and not acknowledging. So not only do I not care about people I hate them and I isolate myself. Then I get a strange lust for blood but not my own. I want to cut someone and watch them bleed. On top of that I won't be awake during the day only the night time.

So with the blood and the hatred towards people I tend to get a bit carried away. I tend to cut the person that approaches me trying to be kind not caring who it is. Maybe I'm a freak who knows but one thing is certain I scare myself in that stage and I don't scare easily. If someone thinks they can prevent this before I'm too far into it go right ahead be my guest but eventually if it doens't work stay away from me I don't want to harm you.