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Life really sucks. Just when I thought things weren't so bad, I get knocked back down. The other day I was talking to a friend online and she said we should hang out this week, probably today. I thought it would be fun, especially because she has a swimming pool. I asked if my other friend could come along too. She said sure, but she didn't know if i'd be able to come over and bring my other friend because she didn't know if her mom would let her have multiple friends over during the week. She said she would call me if I could though. Well, I never got a call. I was bummed, but wasn't real worried over it since I figured her mom just said she couldn't have any one over. I got on my instant messenger a few minutes ago to see if she was on and say hi. She was gone, so I read her away message. It said something like she was gone, but Mo, Jake, and Jason might be coming over later. What happened to her inviting me over?! What also happened to "no multiple friends through the week?!" That's 3 friends she is inviting over! That's even more than the 2 she would have over if she had invited me! Once again, pitched aside. What is so wrong with me that every one else is a better alternative than me? It's funny how even in summer, when I'm away from the thing that depresses me most, something still happens to make me feel like s**t. I guess that's the way it's always going to be. I couldn't even stand to be on instant messenger anymore after reading that, so I just got off to cry and write it down here. I didn't want her to get online, because I didn't want to have to talk to her. I just can't get off this yo-yo.
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