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Honorable Sir,

It’s my hearts desire to finally receive my darkest gift from the all mighty god of the heavens. Too long have I lingered without this magical sensation that would complete me fully. Receiving this gift would benefit the world and its people including the young, and old. Believe me or not but you would do me so much good if you gave me this tingly courage. Reasons vary but my most favorable answer lies within my own writing. First dear sir you must understand that I fear those more powerful than me and second I never have the strength to defend myself from those who did me great harm more than once. Behind my long hair stands a tiny child of mere four years wearing the plainest cotton dress, speaking only to her older sister who protects her from all others, and has a phobia for school.
Correct I had a tendency to freak out in class when one of the boys would try to sway me. Frightened and verge to tears I would yell for help without thinking the consequences. I received a good thrashing from the instructor who paid no attention my pleas. Mother was always angered when she found out about my incidents and too would unleash fury. Courage was long forgotten only sorrow and despair remembered, led to an era of greater sadness. My family fell apart beginning with the death of my beloved grandmother Jesus Maria who died on my first birthday.
Courage I think is essential to the human soul for without it we would not be able to survive unless you are a monster. Sure this sounds so tragic and sad but with courage I personally will feel powerful and confident about every decision but somehow blind from my true intentions. Truthfully I want only happiness and live the normal life of an average person, including having honest friends who wouldn’t betray me in the worst possible ways. In conclusion I ask only to live a life without worries and cares but with love and hope.