I know it has been awhile ..I have started this so many times just to delete for another day..a day where my mind clears a bit. Those days of late r far and few between. My mind wrestles with the thought of change once again..traveling that long road again but this time there is no looking back and i must manage to stay a float.
First off i thought May was a b***h..well my dear readers June is by far the worst. a realationship that i have drawn so much strength was flushed down the toliet. Not a word said... just gone ..complete silence for a whole week leaving me to wonder if he ever cared or just gave up hope in us. Only to find out later he was just taking a break just to find his*shine* (still wondering what that is) but oh well. I am still in the dark about what ended our love of 1 1/2 years. I dont know if he has the answer to that question either. We still keep in contact but it hurts each time we talk either one of us says the wrong thing and the other gets hurt. I dont know any more how to deal. He gets angry when a friend tries to cheer me up with silly comments on my profile...I want all the happiness for him so i just have to let him...SHINE.... (If anyone knows what that means please PM me with the answer)
I have other news but that will have to wait ..for u see this was something i had to get out before i exploded. Plus this took me over a month to write.
keep smilin
love ya
Sin
 needful_sin · Wed Jun 27, 2007 @ 06:34pm · 2 Comments |
