So my Grandmother was drinking what I think was a white Russian, she decided to let me try some as I randomly walked by. At the time it really didn't affect me but a little while later I got all giggly and bouncy. Which was odd because I was feeling so emo a few seconds before. I took my pills late and it gave me one a headache, and those funky a** mood swings. So I was feeling so lonely ever if I was talking to all my friends. Wait I got off subject...Oh yeah. So after being giggly and what not I found my self very horny. Which of course leaves me with a problem. I remember the last time I had a drink, it was around x-mas time, my first drink ever. It was the night I did one of the stupidest things possible I cheated on the man I love. You think I could have kept my pants on, but noooo. I'm so stupid some times...
So as I was sitting there hoping he would get on not for the fact I was horny just for the fact I missed him I got all pissed at my self. I stayed up all most all nigth last night hoping he would come on, I'm sure this night will be the same. Its stupid really, I'm so clingy, before we started talking again I was thinking of quiting gaia. Now I stay as long as I possibly can making sure I don't miss him, only to fall asleep and miss him! I feel so stupid for being the way I am but I can't seem to help it. Its almost like when I'm taking my pill. I get to see him and I'm fine, but I don't I turn into an emo ball of death. And I hate my self for it.
I drown my emoness in Gaara/Neji fanfiction since I've read all the Haku and Zabuza I could find. And yes I did say Garra Neji meaning me likes me seme Gaara and Uke Neji <3 Fanfictions are a beautiful thing you know? So romantic at times then fill with drama and things like that. Truly a wonderful thing. I hate it when they end, yeah its nice some times but at the same time its 'Oh joy back to my not so wonderful life' Oh well what does it really matter...
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