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The only reason i believe i feel this way is because i went through a paranoid relationship for over 7 months. When i asked him out he had already been going out with someone, but i never knew until a week after. Within the previous week we always asked what would happen if either of us cheated. I said i would break up with him. i don’t know what would have happened if i actually did.
Around December, one of his exgirlfriends got back in touch with him. He remembered his feelings for her, but i didn’t leave.. Ever since i’ve been paranoid about his cheating, and still now, even though we aren’t together anymore, i’m still paranoid about it. He had feelings for his other friends too, that’s how i always got depressed easily, and angered even when they messaged a hello to him. i was scared, but i was trying to prevent anything from happening, but my paranoia, and insecurity was too damn much.

It wasn't only him, in fact, he never left me because of it either. He was the most honest, and true one i suppose. The relationship before that, my Ex-ex-boyfriend cheated with his ex-girlfriend a million of times. And my other before that, at the end of a 5 month relatitonship, realize s/he had feelings for some other guy. [Yes, that one was confusing, but ... Eh, it gets messed up] It’s so stupid now.. But i get it.

The main reason why i’m upset is because i want everyone to love me, and only me, because i was never THE ONLY ONE before..


Become one with your inner mold.. Which is cheese.. AKA.. DARK SOUL