those random oppurtunities
or rather those random impulses
to do what i do best
or rather those random impulses
to do what i do best
now, there are some things about me that i just cannot stand!! emo/self-bashing much? haha yeah, i know. cant blame me tho -- im only human. for the longest time i have been spouting things like " life shouldnt be lived with so many regrets " && " live life to the fullest " or my personal fave " you've got one life to live, so why bother holding back? "
i guess im pretty much pro-life/optimistic . . .
[ key words = " i " && " guess " ]
i hold those words so deeply within my heart && dont intend on letting them go. theyre like a life long dream or something or rather. but upon saying such things, i cannot help but wonder : " what would happen if this or that happened? then what? "
questions like those always bring out a very curious side to my nature. hence, im a very curious person && i guess that tends for me to get very nosy at times. sweatdrop
first look && first impressions are important . . . i guess . . . haha(:
i stand by the whole " dont judge a book by it's cover " cliche -- then again, i use it often. oh, how my usage of the ever popular && infamous cliches haunt me . . . haha.
it's only so because when others see me, they automatically assume that im one of those stereotipical " bitchy/mean chicks " or, my personal fave, " the ditzy asian girl ". ah, life can be cruel. i honestly dont like being judged so i myself dont judge people that quick. it's when their true personalities arise that things get kind of complicated . . . im still young so my people skills are still growing sweatdrop
when im with other people, i cannot help but feel shy but, at the same time, i feel the urge to make friends. [ an oxymoran! i think i spelled that word wrong...oh darnit! haha ]
well, i intended to type more . . . but it's late [ gasp! actually it's 3 in the morning! ]. i'll continue some other time. journals/blogs like these somewhat entertain me . . . haha
[ truth is . . . i like to write in journals/blogs -- they make me happy to express myself ~ ]
what's it matter to you?
there's nothing wrong with me
acting just the way i am
there's nothing wrong with me
acting just the way i am
