Okay, let's see here so much happiness, where to begin?
Well, a couple of nights ago (not last night but the night before) I had a really weird dream. Now, I've been researching dreams for a research paper (how ironic, eh?) and have found that dreams are always linked to current events in your life. So I've been trying to make sense of it and work out the symbolism...
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In the dream, I was sitting at lunch with one of my close girl friends and two guys. In waking life, the guy who this friend of mine is getting over, is really cute and feminin-ish (forgive my spelling). Now prom is quickly approaching and the four of us at the table are discussing who we want to go with. I turn away and hear the guy that my friend used to like say, "I'd like you to go with me". So I turn around quickly expecting him to be asking my friend, but he's asking the other guy at the table...
Now, this really doesn't make much sense to me because the guy who was asked by the other guy is a really quite, shy type of person. And the guy who my friend used to like, likes girls.. atleast, I'm pretty sure he does... though, he may be bi.... best of both worlds I s'pose? Oh I dunno... Besides, my friend won't even be in this time zone for the prom.
Any way, it didn't just stop there.
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I then left the cafeteria and walked through the art room and out into this itty bitty courtyard in the center of the school. Now, our school actually has one of these, but I've never been in it. Anyway, I saw another one of my friends sitting at a picnic table in the courtyard with a really pretty guy. He was slender and tall and was talking and laughing with my friend.
This also doesn't make much sense.... This friend is taking one of her home-schooled girl friends to prom with her. Her friend is tall and slender... which I found ironic. And even if my friend were going to take a guy, I really don't think that she goes for the pretty ones. But then again, who can tell.
But then there's more...
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I then found myself sitting at my desk in Japanese class. The teacher was missing and everyone in the front (6 people) were preoccupied so my best friend, who sits across from me said, "Go ahead Lisha-chan, do it now." So I turned around and faced the guy I like, (who's doing independant apprenticeship with that teacher during the same period I have Japanese) and asked, "Are you planning on going to prom." To which he replied, "Yeah, I was hoping to." So I asked, "Are you going with anyone?" To which he replied, "Nope" and shook his cute little head making his cute hair flip about his face. I chuckled and asked, "Well, would you consider going with me?" I don't recall him replying with anything but a smile but it did feel like a yes.
I know I'd never be able to do that. So I was thinking, maybe the people in my dreams symbolize other people... I've been putting it together in my head ... though, it still doesn't work out... but oh I dunno.. too complex for me.
Anyway, today was fun. I'll have to rethink wearing an "I need a hug" shirt ever again. I don't like to be touched, but today I really wasn't in the mood to be man-handled. Lol.
School was fun.. Voo-Doo is awesome, I can't wait to preform it at the concert tomorrow night. All of our songs need work but oh well. I love band just the same.
I brought Suze home with me after school today so she could assist me with freaking chem. Chem can suck my a**, I hate it that much. But Suzy and I did have fun.
Then I went to mass at 5. It was nice. I love going to mass in the evening on a school night. It just feels so good. The warm, setting sunshine poors through the stained glass windows in the back of the church and colors everyone in the pews. I wish I could describe feelings, because this is probably one of the best feelings in the world. It's just a little stronger than the feeling you get when you go for an evening walk in warm fall, when the sun is setting and the mountainside is colored orange. It's just great.
Hehe, as we were leaving, I met up with the Christians and Rachel said the funniest thing. Daniel said he was going to drag me back to the high school track meet because he wanted to see it and had told daddy we'd be there. So I complained about how it was kinda cold outside and he took off his sweatshirt, handed it to me, and said, "Here you go, I'm hot." So I said, jokingly, "Oh yeah you are," and Rachie whispered to me, "...and Marybeth (her sister who is my brother's age) thinks so." Which I found absolutely hilareous. Mib is taking Japanese next year, and my brother is too.. and the only reason she jumped on into Japanese so willingly was because she figured my brother would do it too....
Of course, she's not the only one after him. When we were walking to the track meet, we met up with a friend of mine who moved to troy, Jo. Well, she came running up to meet me and daniel and launched into a story, as is characturistic for her. She started telling me about how she saw daniel leaving the track meet for mass and how she didn't know who he was. So she and her friends were sitting there goggling over this really cool guy who had his shades on and a sweatshirt thrown over his shoulder. She said her two friends were swooning over him and she said that he must be from Towanda because she didn't recognize him. Then Dano walked up to her, said hi, and told her I was at home... it wasn't until then that she realized that the guy was my little brother. I just find that absolutely amusing. She practically grew up with my family, and can't even recognize my brother. Further more, she talks about him with her friends.
Ewww... I sure hope he never reads my journal, because he's not supposed to know about mib.. and I hope no one, except a christian (family, not religion), mentions it to him.
Anyway.. the track meet was awesome. We caught the two last events, both of which we lost, but I believe, overall we won. Not sure though, that's just what Shane was saying.. and who'd believe him. I saw my friend James run... and man, he runs fast... he beat dyson!.. he also made a really scarey face as he ran which I'll have to pick on him about.
So yeah, every day I experience so many highs and lows.. I just can't keep up...
It's really hard trying to keep this semi-updated and also write all of the juicy stuff in my personal, pen and paper, journal... sometimes, I must admit, I get the two confused and have to go back through and edit everything. xp It's come down to me writing a whole bunch of crap in here, printing it, and finishing everything else up in my personal journal.
Yeah, I know, I'm weird.. but how the hell else am I supposed to secure my memories. When I was little I started journal writing because I wanted to be an author and I've kept up with it just because I think it's really cool to go back through and read about how my life was at one time.
Yeah, I am weird... xp
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No fair...you're are about actual people you know! Mine are usually about...
well...I must keep some secrets... wink
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Yeah...your brother sure is a stud-muffin.
Now only if I went for younger guys... lol
Don't worry Lisha-chan...unwritten rules state that you're not supposed to like or hit on your best friend's siblings.
*sigh* And don't remind me that he's leaving...only a month left and I barely see him now as it is. sad
*shrugs* But oh well. Guess you gotta enjoy the time you have, right? wink
...and I think you should pursue your dream! ...just tackle him some day in the hallway.
...or else just strike up a simple conversation with him...*nod nod* 3nodding
...but at least you have another year to make things work! Isn't it great that he's only a junior? heart